Hello i’m nisa, A blind Endocannibal, here to tell my story.I know people do as much as they can to try to support the blind, but no one really even thinks about Endocannibals or knows we exist. My blog is here to change that . so you may be asking, what is an Endo cannibal. Basically, end of cannibalism has been practiced in many tribes throughout the world. It is the practice of eating dead loved ones in order to honor them and keep them with you. It is usually very ritualistic in nature and consists of the mourners consuming the body often with other rituals involved. For me, I wish to eat my girlfriend or wife after she has died or have her eat me after I die. I see it as very romantic and a way to stay together even in death.

My interest in Endocannibalism started at a very young age. When I was two years old, my father got diagnosed with cancer. I didn’t understand the nuances of what that meant, but I did know that he was going to die. When I was 10, he passed away. Instead of feeling grief, I just felt nothing all of the books that I had read prepared me to feel some kind of hole in my heart or crushing weight, but I didn’t feel anything of the sort. That was when I knew I was different..It was around that time that I began to read the Eragon books which portrayed cannibalism in a very bad light. As a natural contrarian I began to question this and think more about cannibalism myself.It was around that time that I began to read the Eragon books which portrayed cannibalism in a very bad light. As a natural contrarian I began to question this and think more about cannibalism myself.Instead of seeing it as a thing to be feared, I thought it was quite nice to give my body to a loved one so that they could eat it and keep me with them. I didn’t understand even then what I was really thinking, but it just seemed comforting. Skip to when I was 13, I had my first fictional crush. Those of you who are familiar with Greek mythology probably know of medea I began to develop more fictional crushes and more nuanced and complicated feelings for them. Even more, my cannibalism was developing from a sexuality to a spirituality.When I was in ninth grade, I came out about my cannibalistic interests.it all started when I was on the bus with a seventh grader who I have never met before. She seemed pretty nice and we both like the same books, so I figured we would get along pretty well. Well, as we were talking, our conversation somehow evolved into a role-play. I was fine with that, as I am a creative by nature and I like the idea of role-playing. The problem is, she just kept creating the same scenarios over and over again. It was getting extremely draining trying to play with her every day. Was October 18 when things got weird. Our role-play went from a vanilla seen where cats and dogs were playing around peacefully sto cats raping someone. Yes, it went there. It made me extremely uncomfortable because she was a seventh grader and did not know what she was talking about. She’s always been extremely innocent this just came out of nowhereWas October 18 when things got weird. Our role-play went from a vanilla seen where cats and dogs were playing around peacefully to cats raping someone. Yes, it went there. It made me extremely uncomfortable because she was a seventh grader and did not know what she was talking about. She’s always been extremely innocent, and this just came out of nowhere. I decided that I needed to be moved to a different place on the bus, so Iwent to the school counselor and I explained what was going on. The counselor asked why it was such a big deal she was role-playing cat sex. in hindsight, I should have just said that it would make anyone uncomfortable to role-play sexually with a child, but at the time, I just blurted out that I was a cannibal. I know, bad mood, but I have been building up inside of me for a long time.in hindsight, I should have just said that it would make anyone uncomfortable to role-play sexually with a child, but at the time, I just blurted out that I was a cannibal. I know, bad moov, but It had been building up inside of me for a long time. I had been thinking about cannibalism for the past four years, and I am the kind of person who needs to share everything on my mind. Of course, everyone freaked out. First, they thought I was suicidal. Then, they thought I was going to kill someone. It took years for that to clear up, and it damage my self-esteem for a long time. In my view, I have been vulnerable for the first time and shared something deep within me that i had been scared of being judged about and they completely validated my fears. Looking back on it, I should have definitely explained it better. There is a big difference between saying I’m a cannibal and say I believe in eating dead loved ones after they die in order to honor them and keep them with me. I learned that later.

After coming out, it took a while for my folks to get used to my Endocannibalism, but they did and they’re cool with it now. I have been going through a lot of mental health issues, and I think that it will help me to share my story here. Also, I believe the Endo cannibals like me need more representation and I’m here to do it. If you’re reading this, thank you for reading and enjoy the rest of my blog.After coming out, it took a while for my folks to get used to my Endocannibalism, but they did and they’re cool with it now. I have been going through a lot of mental health issues, and I think that it will help me to share my story here. Also, I believe the Endo cannibals like me need more representation and I’m here to do it. If you’re reading this, thank you for reading and enjoy the rest of my blog.