When I was 13, I got horny for the first time. I remember it vividly. It was June 10, 2018.we had just gotten home from the boardwalk and I was thinking about a book I had just read. One of the characters in the book was very attractive to me. I’m not sure exactly what Drew me to her, but she was beautiful and fierce. During this time, I have been preventing with thoughts of cannibalism. Because the character that I was interested in has just died in the book, I decided to fantasize about eating her. It was my very first cannibalistic fantasy.preventing with thoughts of cannibalism. Because the character that I was interested in had just died in the book, I decided to fantasize about eating her. It wawas my very first cannibalistic fantasy.

I got home and laid on the couch for three hours fantasizing about this character. It was amazing! I felt so close to her when I was thinking about it and my body was feeling tingly all over. When I thought about eating her, it was like I was taking her into me.I got home and laid on the couch for three hours fantasizing about this character. It was amazing! I felt so close to her when I was thinking about it and my body was feeling tingly all over. When I thought about eating her, it was like I was taking her into me.It was like she was a part of me. It was like we were one. I don’t think I have ever felt that happy in my life.

Until that point, I thought that I was straight. To be honest, I never really showed any interest in boys, but I figured it would come with time. Now though, I was fantasizing about a girl, so perhaps I wasn’t straight. I decided that I was bisexual.Show that point, I thought that I was straight. To be honest, I never really showed any interest in boys, but I figured it would come with time. Now though, I was fantasizing about a girl, so perhaps I wasn’t straight. I decided that I was bisexual.I reinforced the thought that I was bisexual when at summer camp I met a boy and we really hit it off. The last day of camp, we both confessed our feelings for each other. Sadly, we could not keep in touch after that because he did not have a phone. Time went on though and I had more and more fictional crushes and they were all female. After the third girl crush, I had to admit that I was lesbian. I had absolutely no interest in boys whatsoever.

When I came out as lesbian, it was no shock to the people around me. I think everyone kind of knew. Everyone was excepting, and I felt good about it. Honestly, the being lesbian thing was far overshadowed by the being a cannibal thing.as my fantasies grew and I developed mor fictional crushes, my beliefs about cannibalism became far more nuanced. Now I believe it is a beautiful way to connect to people beyond death.